Waiting for the pickup

Date: 08/05/25

This morning did not begin the way I had hoped. My room was a mess. I felt alone and frustrated.

I went into my room, feeling overwhelmed and emotionally messy.

But thank God, that week I had been going to a Christian therapist. I remembered his words: "Feelings are meant to be felt."

During our session, he had pointed to the Psalms of David as biblical proof that feelings aren't meant to be supressed or ignored - but felt and expressed in a healthy way. That is why they are called "feelings".

So I took his advice and I just sat there. I had once seen an image of the Prophet Jeremiah lamenting in his sorrow, and I wanted to mirror him. I allowed myself to just sit in my sorrow and waited on my God to pick me up emotionally.

And God came through.

God in His kindness encouraged me in a way I didn’t expect: a simple but encouraging Christian Instagram reel popped up on my phone that gave me the inspiration that I needed to rise up and clean my room. Not out of pressure, but when I felt ready. It was such a small thing, but it felt personal. God knows how to reach us right where we are.

It was amazing to finally have a tool that could help me practice control over my feelings and emotions that wouldn't lead me into hasty actions that may hurt myself and others:

Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty,

and he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city.

—Proverbs 16:32

Today wasn’t perfect. But it was good. God met me in my mess, and I’m ending this day stronger than I began it.